Thursday, October 30, 2008

Er, Hi again

*cough, cough* Man, this place is dusty.

Yes, I know I said I would start writing again after the summer was over, but...well, something happened this summer and it looks like I'm going to be redshirting this season.

Truth is, I am going to have a baby, so no fencing for me this year. I kept up with practice through August and part of September, but I'm out of it for now. In some ways, this forced break was welcome; I had been having a lot of mental hang ups and frustrations and didn't always look forward to practice. That's never a good feeling and not a good way to get better. So I hope that when I return sometime next summer it will be with a clear mind and a positive outlook.

But of course I miss it too. Practice has always been more fun than competition and I miss hanging out with my friends at the club. I miss bouting with people who I'm pretty sure can read my mind at this point and still managing to surprise them every now and then. I had been excited that there was another NAC I could attend in Atlanta but given that it's only a couple weeks before my due date, I'm going to go ahead ad say that's a no-go.

And I worry - I worry that getting back into shape and rebuilding muscle memory will be a daunting and discouraging experience. I worry that I'll fall behind and never be able to "catch up" to the people that pass me in the meantime. But I try and remind myself that I've got a darn good excuse for any and all slippage.

I'm not totally inactive. I've been swimming at the Y and walking a lot. I haven't actually gained any weight yet and I still feel capable of almost everything; I just get tired a little faster. Plenty of women bounce back quickly from pregnancy. I'd like to say that I'll be one of those without sounding foolishly optimistic.

So, that's about it for now. I don't imagine I'll be posting here too often for the near future, but fencing is still on my mind so who knows.

Good luck to all this season.


madfencer said...

Hiya, good to see another fencing blog out there! I have a fencing blog in preparation for the commonwealth games so feel free to have a look.

sassy fencer said...

Hi and congradulations on the baby!
I have to say you have an excellent blog here, your capability of introspection is amazing. So what happened I wonder, did you start training again? You seem so passionate in your early entries.
In any case thank you for sharing all these experiences.
I wish you all the best in life!

Courtney said...

Thank you for such thoughtful words! I have not been fencing much lately. I have been training for and competing in triathlons since that is something I can practice for without a bouting partner!

The clubs around here are mostly only open on weeknights, which is difficult to manage right now. More and more lately though I am thinking about how much I miss it. The couple of local tournaments I have competed in since having a baby, I had a great time and did fairly well.

So we'll just have to see. :)

Hil said...

Congratulations on the baby. I assume you would have started training again by now